More than 2 mos ago, I was hanging in a steep cliff..hanging on my dear life and what was let of it. My ex fiance broke up with me, canceled the engagement and the wedding this coming December. I don't know what to do, where to go and how I could handle this. People around talked so much, giving out opinions, straightening out what actually happened and as for me I don't know how to begin as to what I felt. Everything was volatile like a fuming gas suffocating my soul I wanted to get out. One bad thing led to another bad event then another bad choices.
There was one thought in my mind: I don't want to allow these circumstances to ruin my life. My only option: PACK MY BAGS & LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND!
I don't know where to go nor what to do but I need to face this as fearlessly as I can. Either way part of it was my decisions and I should straighten out my life in my terms. So I need to LET EVERYTHING GO. I have let go of things that remind me, every single detail about the wedding I have canceled everything. When I was comfortable enough, I have confronted my own pain, my seething anger and grinding disappointment. I have recognized that my self esteem was crushed to the core and my sanity is in danger level. I have to deal with this on my own but for now I need to LET GO.
Then one morning I woke up feeling lighter but not better. I began to pray it was the intimate prayers I have made so far. I am allowing GOD to work for me..LETTING GOD and his will prevail. I asked him for guidance and more strength as I deal with my life. I would like him to be my partner instead him on top of me. I wanted him closer and yearned for his comfort.And I have prayed for the people who was hurt because of these even the man I love, yes! I have prayed for his well being.
Then changes came, I looked to positive and things began to be positive. I changed internally then changes externally came. I lost much weight and my skin looked radiant. I love how I look nowadays and people start complimenting. Men are attracted and women kept on admiring. I know a healthy dose of positivism and cheery spirit has been my everyday medication. And it is absolutely 100% potent!
Then things that I want seem to come to me without me asking, I have a new job( contract signing soon) which nurtures what I am good at. In the manner that I want and the vicinity that I want with salary expectations that I desire. People with good standing starts to come by without me asking.They come knocking all at the same time. A new business idea came to mind that I want to flourish in the future and the new zest in painting that I have never felt before. Everything in my life actually transpired the way I wanted it and in the time I wanted it.
As of relationship, I know deep down what I am doing is actually good for me and I am allowing him to do what is actually good for him. That certainty is liberating and free me of regret if I am actually doing the right thing. If we were right for each other, there will be a right time.
Parting words?
Don't make excuses in your life when changes comes knocking right at your doorstep..don't ever say "wait.", "just a second" or "in a while.." GRAB IT! Don't let the things of the moment stop you for experiencing the life that you have always wanted and dreamed of.
DO NOT LET CIRCUMSTANCES OF YOUR LIFE TAKE CHARGE.
CHANGE THE WAY YOU BEHAVE AND THE CIRCUMSTANCES WILL CHANGE.
Make your partner and he will exceed all of your expectations.
LET GO AND LET GOD WORKS.
you live only once, BE FEARLESS.
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