not waiting for my Supernova..nuh-uh!..

Are you ready for FIERCE LOVE?



Life on your own terms demands a lot from you.It's a spoonful of acceptance & gallons of courage. It's about finding your place & doing it your way.Remember dearest that DOING MORE or BIGGER requires FIERCE LOVE.

Are you ready then? To practice positivity &  focus on strength so you could step into your personal power. Stop the comparisons and ditch the DOUBTS NOW! Speak up and do your things at YOUR way! Let the light come up into your life and be catatonic to haters!lol! Give weight to your integrity and do not forget to make room towards other's amazingness!

I am not going to wait for my SUPERNOVA but I am going to shine on my own!







I was totally inspired to Molly Mahar's Fierce Love course!I always say to myself LOVEWINS even when I do yoga. It's such an amazing feeling after but when I started to add that fierce lovin' unto myself- my LIFE just keeps getting better. I didn't enrolled in her course but I  understand that she was inspiring thousands of women out there, it was totally AMAZEBALLS!

Kicked nellie's ASS today!

courtesy of Molly by Stratejoy

I have read her manifesto today thereby, I was so inspired by her words.It makes me want to follow and pump myself more for my dreams. So I will be laying my plan for today, I will not have timeline but I will build goals for each month.

I am very much hopeful in achieving my goals for every month and very much excited in becoming the GUTSY woman that I wanted to be.

But I will follow her suggestions because I think it is logical. The first step CONNECT WITH SELF.

She pointed out questions that I should answer, but I would like to check my answers after a mos if it changes for me or there are other things that I want to change or add for myself.

If I absolutely strip myself, free from things that define me as a person..remove my title as a nurse, remove my profession, my friends and families Who am I?

I felt like all my life I was expected to do alot of things, be a lot for all the people around me but I never sorted myself: WHO AM I?

For a moment this is what I know:

I am a strong resilient woman, my power lies on the way I think, I am cautious to what I should think and therefore cautious as what to say.

I am a very opinionated person, I never run dry from words. I always have the opportunity to say at the right way I know how and if that opportunity doesn't come: I make the opportunity.

I may seem meek at the outside but I never run from my battles though I hate battles and disharmony.

But I would like to connect to myself even more....before my goal was to be over what happened and get myself back..but now my goal is :MOVE FORWARD AND CELEBRATE LIFE THAT IS GIVEN TO ME.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO OFFER?

I have been thinking about this: my unconditonal support, my loving care, my high spirt that uplifts other people, my attitude of never say no to opportunities, my love for simple things and adornment in grand things. My infallible understanding & when I say something I stand for it.

WHAT MAKES ME EXTRAORDINARY?

hmmmm..just being myself, that alone makes me extraordinary!!!!I know I have some quirks and whims!I am not a prefect person. I get angry, irritable and speak foul words when I felt like it. I did lied, cheated and done wrong to those people that I love the most. But at the same time I still feel and know I am extraordinary.

WHAT REPELS ME?WHAT ATTRACTS ME?

I dislike people who pushes away people, who are bullies and selfish. I dislike people who are dishonest and tries to sugar coat realities. I hate people who make promises but never fulfills it as much as I hate people to says they are sorry but they never understood what they were sorry about.

WHAT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE?

Painting makes me alive!!Doing something new and extraordinary, being in a different place and travelling to unknown territory brings tingles in my spine.

"I am more than enough!" that will be my mantra when I feel down just like today and the other night.. I will repeat "I m more than enough!"...I have completely let go now. I have made efforts to comfort him but i am making efforts to comfort and take care of myself. That's kicking Nellie's ASS!

That's celebration of LIFE!

Pump out my JUICE:

Things I learned today NEVER let anyone allow to kicked me out easily nor push me aside like I am dispensable because in reality: PUSH ME ASIDE WHATEVER YOU LIKE BUT YOU WILL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE ME AGAIN.

NEVER comfort someone who doesn't deserve to be. Always comfort and take care of your being and do things for yourself rather than thinking other people.Its about time to FIGHT BACK FOR ME!

a_fearless:REVISITED

More than 2 mos ago, I was hanging in a steep cliff..hanging on my dear life and what was let of it. My ex fiance broke up with me, canceled the engagement and the wedding this coming December. I don't know what to do, where to go and how I could handle this. People around talked so much, giving out opinions, straightening out what actually happened and as for me I don't know how to begin as to what I felt. Everything was volatile like a fuming gas suffocating my soul I wanted to get out. One bad thing led to another bad event then another bad choices.

There was one thought in my mind: I don't want to allow these circumstances to ruin my life. My only option: PACK MY BAGS & LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND!

I don't know where to go nor what to do but I need to face this as fearlessly as I can. Either way part of it was my decisions and I should straighten out my life in my terms. So I need to LET EVERYTHING GO. I have let go of things that remind me, every single detail about the wedding I have canceled everything. When I was comfortable enough, I have confronted my own pain, my seething anger and grinding disappointment. I have recognized that my self esteem was crushed to the core and my sanity is in danger level. I have to deal with this on my own but for now I need to LET GO.

Then one morning I woke up feeling lighter but not better. I began to pray it was the intimate prayers I have made so far. I am allowing GOD to work for me..LETTING GOD and his will prevail. I asked him for guidance and more strength as I deal with my life. I would like him to be my partner instead him on top of me. I wanted him closer and yearned for his comfort.And I have prayed for the people who was hurt because of these even the man I love, yes! I have prayed for his well being.

Then changes came, I looked to positive and things began to be positive. I changed internally then changes externally came. I lost much weight and my skin looked radiant. I love how I look nowadays and people start complimenting. Men are attracted and women kept on admiring. I know a healthy dose of positivism and cheery spirit has been my everyday medication. And it is absolutely 100% potent!

Then things that I want seem to come to me without me asking, I have a new job( contract signing soon) which nurtures what I am good at. In the manner that I want and the vicinity that I want with salary expectations that I desire. People with good standing starts to come by without me asking.They come knocking all at the same time. A new business idea came to mind that I want to flourish in the future and the new zest in painting that I have never felt before. Everything in my life actually transpired the way I wanted it and in the time I wanted it.

As of relationship, I know deep down what I am doing is actually good for me and I am allowing him to do what is actually good for him. That certainty is liberating and free me of regret if I am actually doing the right thing. If we were right for each other, there will be a right time.

Parting words?

Don't make excuses in your life when changes comes knocking right at your doorstep..don't ever say "wait.", "just a second" or "in a while.." GRAB IT! Don't let the things of the moment stop you for experiencing the life that you have always wanted and dreamed of.

DO NOT LET CIRCUMSTANCES OF YOUR LIFE TAKE CHARGE.

CHANGE THE WAY YOU BEHAVE AND THE CIRCUMSTANCES WILL CHANGE.

Make your partner and he will exceed all of your expectations.

LET GO AND LET GOD WORKS.

you live only once, BE FEARLESS.